You know those moments when everything slows down around you and wherever you are, whatever you're doing, you realize, "there is no better feeling than this very moment."
I love those moments, a-ha moments (thanks Oprah) if you will, take your breath away moments, warm and fuzzy moments that you want to last forever. You know what I'm talking about?
Here is where I tell you a story about something that happened today and the world stood still and nothing could be better than that exact moment...wishful thinking. I'm here to tell you about the exact opposite.The worst feeling of all time. Some would say experiencing a death is the worst feeling. Although very painful, I've lost my Dad and my brother so I know pain, but you grieve you cherish the memories and you move on. Life makes you move on.
The worst feeling, here it is, you ready...brace yourself...having someone you love more than life continue to walk down a destructive path, no matter what you say, no matter how hard you beg, they are going to do what they want to do and learn the hard way. Wait, that's not the worst feeling,...the worst is walking down that path with them, but you are now a shadow, they don't hear you, they don't want you there, but you can't go away because you are attached to them forever, that's what unconditional love is. All you can do is watch and as your heart breaks you continue to pull them the other direction, waiting for the day she holds my hand and walks with me.
I feel exhausted, I feel defeated but I will not give up.
Heather K.
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4 comments:
I'm not an expert, but truly know how it feels. Keep your smilng face up, I promise you will be okay. It will be okay in the end, if it's not okay...then it's not the end. Just Be...we adapt in ways that we could never imagine possible.
If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, somebody just promised us it would be worth it.
Love you!
Sweet Heather,
I have six children I have taken this journey with and yes.. it's unconditional Love. I was once was asked if I wanted to get in the way of the life lessons my loved one was experiencing. (I wanted to say yes) since I thought and usually still do think I can save all those I love. My higher self knew what I was being taught and I usually let go and let God take over. (He is proud of me at those times) It's not easy... and down thr road or tomorrow you will realize there were moments when some important people in your life had to allow you to take your path... waiting patiently ..... praying for the right outcome.
The highest good for all those concerned ... and when you take this attitude... it's amazing how things change. Some people or situations stay... some go on to their highest good..."else where" I love you.
Whew... sending you support and brave energy. That takes strength and courage.
Just don't dwell on what you cannot change. (I think I finally *got* this lesson a couple of years ago, but it took me so long, so many mistakes, so much banging my head against the wall.) One thing you cannot change is another person's path...
But you can love them -- and it sounds like you're doing great at that.
Thanks to all of you for your comments. It's good to know when I feel alone in this, there are others that have been down a wrong path or beside someone during their path. Your words keep me strong!!
Heather
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